Acts 19:1-8; John 16:29-33
The readings speak to me of many things – the humanity, vulnerability and devotion of Paul and the disciples to Jesus and to each other. They truly want to get it right. They want to understand. They want to know. They want to be faithful and to believe. However, what they experience is their own humanity. It is not in their power to understand this Jesus. They can not go it alone, although there will be many times when each one will be very much alone.
In my daily life, I often experience this same confusion. I really do want to know and understand and believe. However, I get trapped within my humanity. I can not go it alone. When I am able to let go of the frustration and confusion and open myself to the gifts of the Holy Spirit – peace, patience, kindness, and hope then eventually I do experience a feeling of well-being. For me, it is often the irony that is Christ. I often experience peace in the midst of confusion and turmoil, gratitude in the dark of loneliness, and hope in the shadow of sorrow.
“The Lord said: I will not leave you orphans. I will come back to you, and your hearts will rejoice. Alleluia.” (John 14:16)
By Joan Howard